i know, i know. it's been such a long, sad time since i updated. i thought that being home for the summer [and by home, i mean not at all] would leave plenty of time for blog updates and photos and daily journalings of my oh-so-interesting life. but the truth is, work is one thing i didn't expect-time consuming.

i really enjoy my job, and i'm damn good at it. except when people want me to suggest a good present for someone turning a year old, and i usually want to say 'they're a year old, just dangle a red sock in front of them and they'll think you're a god.' but yet, they want flashy lights and music that the poor kid will be terrified of or grow out of in a year and then they'll be back wanting something even flashier and even more light-up-y than before. but usually i enjoy a good day at work, and it's busy enough to be fun, and my coworker elaine is the most fun thing in the world. but man, 9 hours a day, it takes effort. and once i get home, the soft, once-inviting glow of the laptop just doesn't seem to beckon me the way it used to.

plus, when i'm not working, i'm with my friends, who are really the only ones who care to read my little journal anyway, so they get what's going on. but i've got a couple readers on here who i don't see that often, so i suppose i owe them a good shout once in a while. lately, in the friends category, things have been...well... bizarre to say the least. lots of talking, lots of secrets, lots of late nights. but it's good, and we're growing up, or grown-ups, or something and we're being good people and that's what's important. i'm making new friends out of old friends and discovering commonalities with people i never thought i had. even if that commonality is a sad one, it is a commonality none the less.

and hey, here's a paragraph that isn't on my xanga or my livejournal, because no one here at home reads this journal. i've been spending tons of time, including much late-night-talking time, with aaron. it seems i've finally found a way to be his friend, and to help him. sometimes i have to resist the urge to fall in love with him all over again, because that would be so easy, but i won't. because that's not my life anymore, and i'm not that girl anymore.

all in all, i think i'm doing pretty well. i know this wasn't exactly funny or cute, or really all that informative. but soon i'll post pictures from work, detailed schedules of my daily life, and fun stories about little girls in tutus or maui jim sunglasses. i love you all. 10-4.

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